Monday

What a rotten Monday. It was storming this morning when I left for work at 6:15 and stayed sort of yucky all day long. The weather matched my mood completely. I feel just kind of yucky today. My weekend was not so great and it just continued on over into today. I know that the Bible commands us to forgive and forget but wow how hard that is!!! My sister-in-law and I had a "situation" over the weekend where she said some horrible things to me that hurt me very deeply. I prayed yesterday, "trying" to forgive her, which I have, but I am not sure how long it will take me to forget. I spoke with her and told her that I forgave her but that forgiveness did not make things automatically right and I feel so torn by my feelings. I know that to be like Jesus I have to forgive it's just that forget part that I am hung up on because I am so hurt. Then add to the attitudes at the job today where if anyone is a Christian, they sure don't bear the fruit but then today especially, I fall into that same category of not bearing fruit I guess. I know that the Lord is the only one to "change" me and hopefully when this weather front moves through, my mood and attitude will too!!!